God the same

Do you remember the first time you fell in love with Jesus? What was it like to you? For me, I remember falling in love with Jesus when I was just a child. It was the most beautiful moment I've experienced to date. Although life was not really a bed of roses during my childhood, I found refuge in Him and was wrapped in the fullness of His love for me. I did not just started knowing Him as my Lord and Saviour, He was my Best Friend from the very beginning. I shared with Him my heart's deepest secrets and I loved being intimate with Him. As I grew up and life throwed its different challenges, I can't help but to look back at those times and wish I could still experience what I experienced as a child. I felt a change and a distance, like I'm not able to do what I used to do anymore.

Fast forward to the present, these few weeks hadn't been the best weeks of my life. This is probably one of the darkest seasons I've experienced. And one of the most agonizing thing in a dark season is when we feel forgotten by Jesus Himself. Today, I was not really able to name my struggles when I came before Jesus but I asked Him not to abandon me as tears just rolled down my face. In response, He reminded me of the first time I fell in love with Him. Rather than telling me about what I had experienced, He told me about what was on His heart when He started a relationship with me. I was not the only one who made a commitment to Him but He also made a commitment to me. The moment He started a relationship with me, He already had in His mind never to leave me nor to forsake me. The moment He held my heart when I gave it to Him, He intended to hold on to it till I see Him face to face.

I was blown away by this truth and it encouraged me to stand up again in the face of my storms. I saw the first time I fell in love with Jesus in such a different way. It was not only about me working out my relationship with God, it was also about Him holding on to me without fail. Friends, no matter what the distance, what amount of pain, what amount of disappointment - He has made a commitment to you when you first gave your heart to Him. He has made up His mind to be for you always. He will never walk away. He is God the same. 

May.